Results: good and bad

What a week.  I am still waiting for my nuclear bone test results and sadly there are too many humms and ahhhs for me to feel comfortable that they will be clear.  If they are not clear then I will have uncurable cancer which will be a bit crap.  I have done everything I can to stop it coming back and spreading.  Eating healthily (so much cabbage I might as well be a caterpiller), green teas, antioxidants galore.  I have exercised and exercised and lost a shed of weight.  I am one pound off ten and a half stone.  After the last lot of treatment I was 11.5 stone so I am well within my healthy weight bracket now.

I never read up on my cancer before but I have now and I have learned that I am very high risk of it coming back within 2 years.  Bugger.

Still, no news is good news right? The waiting has altered the way I have to think.  I will be having a huge sort out and selling things which I won't be stitching or won't be stitching for a long while.  I will give myself three charts and that is it.  I panic at all the things I have and get stressed in case I won't get time to do them which is a downright silly attitude...so I am going to take the pressure off myself and hopefully have a little bit of pocket money to take my children out with and make happy memories xx  I will put a page up with charts for sale sometime in the week.

That was the bad results (potentially):
There are good.

This is my first Stars Across the Prairy from Big Blocks, Easy Quilts....a book which has the most fabric wastful idea of making flying geese ever...but they were easy so I guess I have to weigh up the pros and cons lol.  One of two of the points are slightly out but I am pleased with my first ever triangle-containing quilt.

And I bought this and am going to make some trick or treat bags out of them to raise money for the walk which hopefully I will still be fit enough to go on!  I am planning I will be.

If you are waiting for things to be posted out by me, many apologies: it is hard to maintain any kind of normality with this hanging over my head and my concentration span is down to zilch..everything will be sent out by Weds this week: promise xx

I have my three people for my PIF: Lany, McKenna and Carolyn.  Thank you xxx When you recieve my goodies, please pass it on to three people through your blog xx

I will leave you with the following quote which is how I plan to live my life, however long that life may be.

'If the fear of cancer keeps you from moving forward, enjoying life, being with loved ones, laughing, then the cancer won, even if it never comes back. But if you reclaim your life, then even if the cancer comes back, it didn't win, because YOU, the PERSON, survived.'

Lisa Weissmann, M.D.