Hi everyone. I have been awol again. Sorry.
It has been a bit of a tough week really. I needed to post for our friend Cathey's birthday, but got caught up on rushing to England and dealing with DD's threatened mis-carriage. And then I meant to post for the date of her passing: just to let her know she was missed. And I couldn't. I just couldn't. I didn't know Cathey (Pumpkin Patch) as well as many of you did, but we did speak through my own breast cancer journey, and then through her illness. And she made a huge impression on me. We never met, but I would come home from hospital visits to find an email from her asking how I was.
On the day she found out that her condition wasn't fixable, she actually emailed me to wish my luck on a scan I was having. Boy, did she have balls, and I am sure she wouldn't mind me saying so. Such a brave, caring, thoughtful person who touched the world literally.
And I couldn't post.
I drove to Enniskillen today, driving through lakeland, mountains, empty countryside and getting a sense of perspective I realised that Cathey would forgive me for being such a wimp. So, a little late, and for Junior, I am posting. Because what is online is on forever and I would like to think if the little lad ever googles his mum, he will see for himself how much she was loved.
Junior, your mum was one in a million. One in a lifetime. If I could touch the hearts of just a very small percentage of the people whose hearts your mother touched, then I will consider my life well lived.
She loved you so much: she updated us frequently on your progress and I know she is watching you carefully from wherever she may be. It was an honor to get to know her through the world of blogging and even though it was online, and over many miles, we all felt her smile.
A pumpkin missed.